I too take things for granted... My biggest thing is eating. I never have any problem to eat anything and everything, anytime and however I want it. When I said anything and everything I meant anything and everything. Chocolate cookies, soda, a lot of noodles, fattening food whatever I feel like eating I'll eat it anytime of the day. I'm also always small too meaning I never really worried on gain weight not by much anyway (despite my everything goes food I still kind of underweight maybe because I don't eat in quantity). Though now I'm getting older and 2 kids later (3 soon) I'm bound to gain weight. Actually mostly I gained weight when I'm pregnant.
Now, what's going on??? As I mentioned before about my glucose test I failed miserably. I'm shocked of course I NEVER has problem and less than a year ago before I got pregnant my glucose test low too so is cholesterol. Then come the 3 hrs test now I thought of 50-50 on passing it I heard most people past and the 1 hr not too accurate. NOT failed again 2 of the result abnormal. I got more depressed. My dr tried to said it's common yada yada, it's because of the plasenta yada yada... but really nothing he said or anyone said made me feel any better not one bit. I couldn't figure out why it happens. Am I really eat that bad? I guess I'm sort of did. I take for granted with my other two and the fact I never has problem and thinking that would never happen to me. You know what happens when you started to think that would never happens to you, it usually did. Just the way life is. I'm getting old so maybe that a factor, I've never pay attention what I ate so that's also a factor. Basically all the bad star lined up and it troubled me.
What now? My Ob/Gyn, set me with earlier delivery and sent me to the Endocrinology and metabolism dr. She going to help me with diet. Since my abnormal reading still not that bad they confident with only diet I can control the sugar problem. Yesterday is my first appointment with the dr. TORTUROUS one! It last 2 freaking hours blah... In the really hot and stuffy office. She's a nice old lady though but still gosh... Just the experience made me think to work so hard so I don't have to come back to the office! She gave me book with guide on serving portion of common fruit, veggie, starch etc with their carbs number. She also made me write down whatever I ate for breakfast, lunch, dinner and snack. I have to check my sugar after each meal (not snack) and just before bed and right after I wake up. She gave me list of food to avoid for now which is the hardest part because it said no white but brown is ok ironic huh I can only eat the one with my skin color! Meaning no white rice, no pasta, no bread, no sweet. I'm like what? what would I eat now? Rice is like things for us Asian! So is noodle not really the pasta but still noodle. I can however eat brown rice, wheat bread etc like I said brown like me.... Then I have to pay attention this little thing called nutrition fact on every stuff I bought. Like yoghurt she told me it contains a lot of sugar that I can't afford to have it when I'm pregnant I'm limited to 4 g for now. I'm freaking spent 10 minutes today at the groceries looking for the low one! I did find one pfffufff because I want it for my snack at work. So is with granola bar keep flipping those boxes dear! Blah blah blah... Hopefully this 2 new stuff taste good! I never bought this brand before. One is famous one though so I suppose it would be taste good the other one I never hear it much.
At the end of the day I'm still pissed, miserable and pitty of myself right now and probably for a while but I would not taking eating for granted anymore. I would pay more attention on nutrition fact even after everything ok. After the baby born because eventually it will be good for me on the long run. After all my mom has diabetic problem so it's run on the family and this is a big wake up call for me...
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